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If I Had A Boat
04:58
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the lights look bluer
when you’re way up high
I wrote you a song and I
I threw it, I threw it in the fire
and if I could lay me down for a while
oh I would lay me down, down
but if I had a boat I’d sail to you
drag it through the mud if there weren’t no water
I would steal a night of sin or two
damn ‘em all, I ain’t no preacher’s daughter
I’d walk my feet raw in the desert sand
cry out to the moon like it understands
oh, if I had a boat
I think in numbers
I’m pretty sure that you think in rhyme
the sum keeps changing
I’ve worked the math out far too many times
and we drag our truths around like a lie
yeah we drag them all around
but if I had the words I’d send for you
a perfectly constructed typewriter cannon
I’d shoot it straight up out into the blue
to where you are, lord knows that I’d be firing at random
and I just wanna know, where do you keep your kings?
and if they ever fall, then will you think of me?
oh, if I had the words
if I had a boat I’d sail to you
oh, if I had a boat I’d sail to you
but I ain’t got no vessel I ain’t got no sea
I find myself as landlocked as can be
but if I had a boat
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2. |
Stones
03:03
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fly south for the winter
looking for warmer weather
and a sun to warm the parts
that have been left out in the cold
I heard about the dancing
and I heard about their songs
and I thought if I listened close
I would learn to sing along
they say no man’s an island
but damned if I ain’t been floating
face down staring at the bottom of the sea
and all I wanted was to try it
to push and to pry it from the hands of someone
probably more deserving than me
and I don’t want to be another sinking stone
but if I hold my breath for long enough
I’ll find out where this current goes
and who’s to say if up above or down below
they can see the answers better, I don’t know
profits prophesizing, politicians profiteering
and the big machine that runs this place
is running out of steam
but I thought if I could see it
oh if I could only hold it
I could carve out a little bit, a little bit for me
and I don’t want to be another sinking stone
but from what I’ve heard ‘bout gravity
well, sometimes even stones will roll
and who’s to say if up above or down below
they can see the answers better, I don’t know
I wrote this for my mother
I wrote this for my father
and I’m singing it for everyone
who still has yet to hear
there are islands, there are oceans
rocks and those who throw ‘em
they’ll say what they want to say
and you’ll see what you want to see
and I don’t want to be another sinking stone
and just because I’m by myself
don’t mean I’m in this thing alone
and who’s to say if up above or down below
they can see the answers better, I don’t know
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3. |
Slow Love
03:56
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we grow cold at the thought of a beginning’s end
we know that the best will soon be good at best,
and if it were me, if it were you
how would this go?
what would we do?
and my fear is that someone will cast a draft of me in stone
and when I find myself, I’ll find myself
alone—can I burn these mountains I know?
I’m selfishly holding on fast to my ghosts
so if you’re gonna love me
won’t you love me slow?
we ran just like horses in a war
count back from ten
plumb the darkness, wondering what for
the walls say we do, the shadows we don’t
I’d fall if I’d let me, I’m betting I won’t
so if you’re gonna love me
won’t you love me slow?
and I’m just looking for some proof
that something’s real and something’s true
I swore that I’d feel nothing
till I could feel it all
oh, I’m sure that I’ve been good
but good for what, and good for whom?
I know you’d break it but I’d rather run than fall
and so I wrestle my grey
my nothing, my void
get lost in my lonely
make love in the noise
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4. |
Alone Tonight
03:51
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I’m sitting in the parking lot
killing my insides
we ain’t got a lot to talk about
but you’ve got a lot on your mind
and it’s colder than I thought it’d be
for this part of the world at this time of the year
but I’ll never let you know it, no
oh, I’ll quake in my boots and I’ll grit my teeth
we’ll both go home alone tonight
you don’t write any songs when you’re happy
I become someone else when you’re blue
and I thought this was supposed to be easy
and I think that you probably did too
and I don’t know what you take me for
a muse, a musician, some kind of magician
but I’m just using all the same words
that I stole from some overheard conversations
we’ll both go home alone tonight
I was terrible and then I was worse
and now you’re nothing, cuz I took it all
but this ain’t about who shot who first
it’s shaking your dust off, it’s learning to fall
and I guess that’s just the way these things go
at least that’s what I keep being told
blue’s a beautiful color, I know
it matches my eyes and it matches your soul
we’ll both go home alone tonight
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5. |
Green
03:58
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wait till there’s a
sign of something better coming
hold out, hold out
baby what’s the use in running?
write it all out in the morning
and then try to make sense of it once it’s down
I only drink cuz I’m thirsty
I know that the water’s bad this side of town
and I had it all, and I still do
it’s just a different kind of everything
we watched real close to see it fade
when all the colors they were turning green
oh, in the right light everything still looks green
this black it ain’t my fault
this purple I don’t even know
this blue, well I’m thinking it might be from you
oh, but I didn’t think that it would show
I’ve got some bad habits in my shadows
they keep following me around
I try to kill ‘em with sunlight
I swim real deep but they won’t drown
and I had it all, and I still do
it’s just a different kind of everything
we watched real close to see it fade
when all the colors they were turning green
oh, in the right light everything still looks green
I draw with my eyes closed
forget everything I used to know
I draw with my eyes closed
draw with my eyes closed
oh I had it all and I still do
it’s just a different kind of everything
we watched real close to see it fade
when all the colors they were turning green
oh, in the right light everything still looks green
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6. |
Red Hot Blues
03:37
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I don’t need you
I can sing myself to sleep
I don’t want you
but sometimes you still are the trouble I seek
yeah, you’re the poison in my silver cup
you light me up, you leave me love
yeah you give me those—
I got my reasons, and baby so do you
I try to tell myself I’m chasing my dreams
but sometimes I really think that I’m just chasing you
in the sunlight, in the moonlight I am fine
but every time I close my eyes
it’s those red hot blues
you give me those red hot blues
I thought for certain
I’d be able to make some sense of this one soon
I thought I understood, I thought I’d figured out
but you’ve got more phases than the goddamn moon
morning coffee, midnight whiskey I am fine
but every time I close my eyes
it’s those red hot blues
you give me those red hot blues
I wanna wrap you up tight in my misery
and make you feel all of those things
that you done to me
But every time I, every time I ,
every time I close my eyes!
it’s those red hot blues
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7. |
Way To Go
03:43
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we plant our seeds
we plant our seeds to grow ‘em tall, but cut our trees
we cut our trees to make room for some palaces
some palaces to hide us all
from what we do not know
I walk a line
I walk a line somewhere between a path that’s mine
and something I was taught was right
but if I stay and if I wait and never try
well then I will not know!
and what a way to go
a trial run
of something that you heard would probably be fun
but turns out like they said it’s already been done
you fall in line
and raise a flag that’s big enough to hide behind
your soothsayer, fortuneteller, concubine
and what a way to go
when all your castles fall, all your castles fall
and what a way to go
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monkey in the corner, staring at me so,
look, I just love you far too much,
too much to ever let you go.
I’ve wrestled larger things than these,
I’m fixated on winning—
yours, mine, and otherwise, it’ll all be a wash
in the morning love, the morning love
it’s all a wash, wring it out.
in the morning love, the morning
it’s a wash, start again in the morning
I’ll be waiting and you’ll probably be gone,
still I’ll make banana pancakes
and I’ll hum what I thought was our song,
and do you even like those things?
I guess I never asked you,
I just assumed like all the rest
they’d be your favorite fruit.
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9. |
In Your Arms
02:58
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october 2nd, 1954
silver wheels rolled her right out of the door
and they all tip their hats, nod their goodbyes
a straight-armed salute as she goes
we’ll skip in her wake and dance on the heels
of things we’re not yet meant to know or to feel
and we’ll ring ‘round the marigolds
trample the earthen soil
waiting to hear some word from somebody who knows
she said I’ll write you a letter, I’ll fold it just so
send it down from the heavens
to where you are standing below
with the others all circled around
1, 2, 3, 4, 5 little pieces I hope to be found
and they’ll whisper behind the curtains
things surely I’m not meant to hear
but walls they will talk as I lie up in bed
with my eyes shooting question marks up at the ceiling
but she said, “Darlin’ I’m fine,
I’m just floating up high
o’er the fangs of the earth, a balloon in the sky
and oh, it’s so magical, marvelous, fantastical
lightning may strike me—
I’ll fall back down into your arms”
now we’ll wait in the dark, watch the moon fall
straining ten eyes to catch a glimpse of her
in that yellow ball dancing silently among the stars
but we can’t see, we can’t see, we can’t see—
she’s gotten too far
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10. |
Walkin'
04:32
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I walked down this road twice today
once to get somewhere, once to get away
back turned towards some words I hadn’t heard
what you were trying to say, I can’t be sure
I walked ‘til the hurt settled down in my shoes
put a few miles between me and my blues
I had a conversation with the moon
said I was mad at me and mad at you
now I don’t know nothin’ bout nothin’
but I know that there’s a feeling that I’ll follow
till I drive it to the ground
and if I leave here I can get there, if I get there I can do it
and I’ll do it even if there’s no one else around
I walked around all of the patches of light
thought you might miss it
if I were to disappear in the night
I wondered to myself where would I go?
I wondered if you’d care or if you’d know?
I scribbled all these questions on the back of my hand
thought if I thought about it long enough
I might understand
but thinkin’ thoughts ain’t bringing any answers to light
and walkin’ feet keep walking me off into the night
and I don’t know what it is that I am looking for but maybe
I have gotta go and lose myself out there before it’s found
and if I leave here I can get there, if I get there I can do it
and I’ll do it even if there’s no on else around
my feet are movin’ crazy and my head is feelin’ dumb
and now I’m running ‘round in circles like a sonovagun
I walked down this road twice today
and on the way home found I had something to say
and I left you south of somewhere
driving hard against the rain
I looked back at you once and screamed “I love you”
Just to hear the sound
but if I leave here I can get there, get there I can do it
and I’ll do it even if there’s no one else around
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11. |
Adios Lenora
04:10
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all my dreams are honey
heaven help me
should I lick my fingers to taste a little more
I set a course for something that looked golden
“Go do something beautiful”
you made me promise, and I swore
now all the roses bloom o’er Amerillo
I see you when I smell ‘em
I’d kiss every last thorn
“When you’re home, knock loud”
you’d said at leaving
“I don’t care if it’s late at night or in the early morn.”
and I wonder where this sadness goes
who it picked, and what it knows
if it dances by itself or if it sleeps alone
does it call out for Lenora?
and does it yearn for Clementine?
it’s raining but I hear the mountains
they are doing fine, yes they are doing fine
adios, sweet love of mine
I’ll see you come next fall
hold on fast to Clementine
don’t let her get too tall
I’ll wear my lonely ‘round my neck
I’ll sleep inside your heart
while shaking hands in moonlight
and making deals in the dark, in the dark
it only rains at night here, so they tell me
but when it does it washes every last one of us clean
at home I never understood the need for that
but now that I’m out here
I know exactly what they mean
some devils dance at midnight
others, they prefer the light of day
they’ll tell you what you wanna hear
things you’re afraid to say
I know ‘em by their shoes now
never look ‘em in the eye
you’d better have a quick hand
or else learn how to lie, how to lie
adios, sweet love of mine
I pray this finds you soon
hold on fast to Clementine
tell her daddy’s missin’ her bad, too
just a little longer, then I swear I’m coming home
I swear it on my life, my lord and everything I know
all I know
canyon winds they call me home
dustbowl mama take my bones
canyon winds they call me home
oh, dustbowl mama take my bones
adios, sweet love of mine
this wasn’t meant to be
hold on fast to Clementine
cover her eyes so she won’t see
they took my horse, poisoned my blood
and left me here to die
but I’ll see you when you sleep at night, my love
so don’t you cry, don’t you cry
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